somebody should glue the broken pieces of me together

now, whenever i see food, i feel sick.
not that i don't appreciate food, i love food, well i used to.

I'm frustrated with myself,
i don't like myself, for not feeling hungry or for feeling so bloody full after a small bowl of rice or even for the feeling of puking whenever a plate of food is placed in front of me.

I'll be hungry and full at the same time.

:(

urgh, i feel disgusted of myself.